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Lost in Transition

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2/11/06 11:03 pm - Musings

I want you told hold me
Long into the night
Even though you don't know me
I see you in my mind
And there you love me,
Even though you cannot in reality
But I am waiting
And will continue to wait.

1/23/06 07:09 pm

one bullet is all it would take...

11/8/05 11:55 am

yes yes, I no longer think I love him. I KNOW I do.

9/21/05 11:30 am

and they start finding me...

9/21/05 11:19 am - so my journal's fucked up...

I've fucked up again, but while I'm at it, I'm busy finding all sorts of alcoholic beverages that I enjoy...

9/6/05 05:38 pm - By the Way,

Fuck you. fuck all of you. Go stab yourselves or something.

9/6/05 05:32 pm - No, you DONT know what you're talking about

The more I think about it, the more I think a Russian Roulette of some sort is the way to go. I mean, I'm just so tired, and worn out. I really just don't want to be around. I cna't do anything right, and on top of it all, I'm just a fucking moron who's too scared to do anything that'll really leave a dent. I'm too scared to go against my parents. I probably won't ever even go so far as to get my belly button peirced. And, I certainly won't ever do the things I really want to do. Maybe, I just complain too much and never take matters into my own hands. Maybe I should focus on that. Maybe... Maybe...

8/10/05 10:57 pm - I'm so lonely...

I want love.

I want someone to caress my body.

In fact, I want someone to play dirty games with.

But then I remember my religion, and I want to cry.

Damn these human wants.

I knew hanging out with guys so much was bound to rub off on me at some point.

8/7/05 10:43 pm - Life Sucks

I hate it when ppl lie to me. Really, I do. I thought the world would know that. I'm not mad at him because he was uncomfortable with he situation, I'm mad because he wasn't up front enough to tell me. Now I've got yet another major acting job to pull off. All I have to do is pretend that it made me uncomfortable too. Not hard, no? Just brush it off as a temporary lapse of judement, and when I got there, it was really weird. Boys are dense, therefore at least half of the world will buy it. And what do i care whether or not i lie to my closest "friends"? It's not like they're sticking around anyway, and when they do leave, they'll forget all about me. I'm really truely nothing to them.

College in Nashville is looking better and better.

I can't wait to get out of here.
I'm so sick of brats who think they're better than everyone.
I'm sick of peple not having manners.
I'm sick of political fights and being attacked about my beliefs ALL the time.
I'm sick of being blamed for stuff I wasn't even alive for.
I'm sick of being called a hypocrite.
I'm' sick of cowards.
I'm sick of being lonely.

I want to go home, but I have no idea where home is.

I want to have one shoulder to cry on where I don't have to talk, and they don't feel they have to try and make me stop crying. I just want somebody's shoulder who understands that I just need to cry.

7/22/05 08:36 pm

Would it be bad to have a crush on a guy who's two years younger, tight with one of ur really close friends, and the younger brother or ur exbf and current bff?
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